So MY BIRTHDAY was amazing :) I had so much fun sharing time with all my amazing friends! I am so thankful to have such wonderful caring people around me! I will say though turning 21 is kind of overrated. I mean, it was another night, I dont feel like im older. I guess, since I am not the party type it doesnt have a huge affect on me. Trust me it was a BLAST, though :)

I got woke up this morning with bummer news. My mom will possibly be out of town 2 of the 3 weeks i am home. She will be training for the job she has been trying to move up to in her company for a long time now. She will be in Ohio. :( I cried, got mascara (last nights of course) all over tjs favorite off white sweater, told her i was really happy for her and then cried more. I am really happy for her. She was so torn because she wanted to be there to see us, but she can not pass it up. I want to be just as excited for her as she is, but i cant be. Not just yet. There is some good news to this, if she gets this job she will be making ALOT more money so i can go home more, AND she will be traveling all of the time which means she may end up in CA lots. Other than that, i see no happiness in the situation. Maybe in a week i will feel a little better about it, but for now, i am so broken. My mommy is my best friend and i wanted to see her the whole time i was home, and i wanted her to be with aiden the whole time so he could remember her. :( I just really cant even picture being there for 3 weeks without her, the only time i will be able to see her. 

Well, i cant really think of happy things now, and i dont want to bore you with sad thoughts, so i guess i am done. 

Lord please help me to not be bitter about this situation.