LOVE

Katie and I have been talking a lot lately about something. I am a little worried to be going to the church i grew up in for a few reasons, one of which...to them...i am not ''saved". Its so beyond my understanding that people are living and breathing and loving their savior, but yet, they arent "saved". People are reading their bibles studying his word, following after him in every way, but they are not "saved". 

I have finally over the last few months started understanding how to love God and to truly love him. To give him all control over me and to trust that he loves me and he will take care of me. Before, it was like a rule, i put on my skirt, made my hair the size of texas and went to church. Now its like, i wake up in the morning and i smile, because I love him, i really love him. Its not an act, its not because its what I am supposed to do, its because i have the relationship with him that was never there before. Its not about all these things that other people have made it out to be. Its me and him, he is my best friend, my love. At the end of the day, if i live right through him, if i show people i love him and try to draw them closer to him, i have done what i am here to do. That is what i am here to do. Not to scare people with crazy rules and regulations on how they are supposed to show HIS love.