Why is it that I feel like I am the one putting forth all the effort in some of my friendships? I am not talking about any of my really close friends, but other friends that I used to think were close. It seems as if they could care less these days. Its frustrating to me because, we are supposed to love all, but how do i get to the place where i can express all that love to certain people and be okay with not getting it in return? When people do not respond back, when they ignore, when they act like you do not exist, its rude and hurtful. Maybe i am just being a girl, or being too overly sensitive, but I am human. I think we can all say we have felt this way at some time or another.
On to my next overwhelming thought. I am ready to do something. I have an overwhelming passion to help those around me, to be a friend and to show the love of God to so many. Where do I begin? This new role we have started at the stirring is exactly where I know I need to be...but waiting. UGH. The waiting is so, well, frustrating. I cant think of a better word. I want to get it going and God just keeps putting a hold on it. Waiting and waiting. oh. life.
Next!
My friend michelle just had her baby. Beautiful little girl! Im so happy for her and her hubby. Being a parent is the best feeling ever. Little Sophia was a month early, so keep her in your prayers because she is in the NICU, doing better, but not ready to be released yet.
One of the diamonds fell out of my ring. Seriously. rude. I was so angry. Hopefully my warrenty will cover it since I never get my rings cleaned because the jewelry store is oh...about 3000 miles away from me. In a month i will find out, its just a baby one so I am hoping they will. Sad day if they dont :(
All done.
random i know.
i love you Nikki i wish we lived closer to each other!!!
ReplyDelete:) me too friend!! love you!!
ReplyDeleteInteresting thoughts about the friend situation. I get in that spot a lot it feels like. I may post a blog about loving others soon since I just read a section about it in Mere Christianity...
ReplyDeleteyou so should write a blog about it! I would love to read it!
ReplyDeleteI couldn't help but feel an extreme personal relation to that idea of anxiety and impatience through waiting. As I have been going through my own season of waiting I have found (being one who hates waiting for things) that God always has something in the mean time that you can (and most times should) be working on or towards. The most brilliant part of it is (at least for myself), the little things I've worked on have all been in direct correlation with the bigger goal I was waiting for. I hope that's not too confusing :) Just look for something else you can improve on in the mean time, then whatever you can't wait for will arrive before you know it! Love you, it was great seeing you guys yesterday.
ReplyDeleteI def have something to be working towards, so i need to focus on it :) You are great Michael! LOVED seeing you last night and I hope we see you again very soon! love you!
ReplyDeleteThank Michael for me. That word was for me... fosho.
ReplyDeleteAnd girl... You have got to stop trying so hard to love these people in your life. YOU can't do it... YOU can't keep pretending to have an 'unconditional' love for someone... Like you said, you're just a human. Only GOD's love is TRUELY unconditional and never ending... Remember to let HIM love THROUGH you.... He can. He will. He wants to. Just ask.
xo.
PS - I'm sorry about your diamond dude... that's a bummer.
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