My big boy has reached the next step.

Toddler Bed. He is such a big boy. He climbed out of his crib and fell on Saturday, so now no more crib. Luckily we bought the crib that changes as the kid grows. So Tj transfered it into the toddler bed Saturday right after it happened. So far so good. He has only gotten out of bed once as soon as we put him down and then gets back in and goes to bed. I hope we are lucky through this and he doesnt have a hard time with the transition. 

Another new thing:

Curious George. He is absolutely in love with Curious George. Its the one movie that he will actually not get distracted in after 5 minutes. He loves it. I think George is the cutest little monkey ever so it works out well :) He carries around the case for the dvd all day. He always picks it out when its movie time. Its adorable!

i miss him :/

This is my cousin Trey. He is amazing. He is stationed in Japan right now in the marines. 

it will be 2 years until i see him again...i just really really miss him. 

TATTOOOOOO! :)

So tonight I was on the phone with my best friend discussing tattoos. I have been rather nervous because in the back of my mind i still was unsettled with the fact that Jesus may not be okay with it. So her and i got online did some research and found some things that really brought me to my final decision. I am SO GETTING A TATTOO. :)

I found some stuff in Leviticus and Romans that helped make my decision, and a really good article at www.christianitytoday.com. So go check out the article, im not about to type all that in! The website also helped me with a lot of the other issues i have been dealing with since i left my "pentecostal religion" and decided to start following Christ in a way i could understand. I am super excited about so many things and i finally have a better understanding of pretty much everything that i have been lacking in. 

So my tattoo:

I origanlly have always wanted to get Proverbs 3:5-6 tattooed somewhere, but i thought i would start out a little smaller, because well i cant take a lot of pain...so thats a lot for my first time. Then i thought well I love LOVE so i should just get the word love tattooed. I've been thinking about it for a while now and though LOVE has a huge meaning in my life, i want something more specific. So i am going with, HE LOVES US. I am so in love with that song. Ya know the one I'm talking about?

He is jealous for me, loves like a hurricane....

ya know that one?

He loves me, and i am so glad that He loves me. So, why not tell everyone i come in contact with that He Loves Us? He loves each and every one of us. So there you have it! Thats what i am getting. He Loves Us. :)  I am so excited!

Now here is what i need friends help in!

Where should i put it?  My two spots that i am thinking is wrist or foot. So what do ya'll think? Which one? Or even throw out a different spot! I want our opinions and very soon please!

See ya later

Goodbyes are really the hardest thing to do

I have never once said bye to someone and enjoyed saying it.

This has been a year of goodbyes. I've never said goodbye so many times. I made so many wonderful new friends from all over the world. It was great to have them for a season, but i wish God wanted them in my life longer than a season. There is always facebook though right?? Of course. 

Im not done with the goodbyes yet, i just have to remember to say See Ya Later....not goodbye. 

:/

My life has been nonstop lately, but i still somehow have found time to be completely emotional roller coastery crazy. How you ask? I dont know.

My past is coming back up. I have had so many friends just jump back up on the band wagon lately. Where are they coming from? My old best friend from high school, and when i say best friend i mean, like stay up on the phone all night, spent every minute together, skipped most classes to go to sonic and the mall, knew everything about each others lives, best friend. He needs me, and i feel like i can help. I feel like I can be that person, that example in his life. Phone conversations are about it since there is a 3000 mile difference. But its good, i have really enjoyed all these folks coming back into my life. Tj too. :) he loves michael and the other ones :)

The emotional roller coaster though is that i am so off. I cant seem to get it together, I am exhausted with so many things going on. I havnt had a night or day off in a cant remember, even when I am away from aiden for an hour, i still have something to do. Its not just down time for me. I just need nikki time. maybe...i dont know. I have a trip planned for home again in October, actually its the last week in Sept and a couple weeks of Oct. I am so happy, my cousin is getting married, we are not super close but she is still family and i love her, i can not wait to enjoy that day, its about freakin time!!! Im thinking i will either LOVE being home again or HATE it. Im praying there will not be any drama like this last time. HE is out of the picture so i dont see anything happening to cause drama, but ya never know. Life is life. So Im hoping for a little more alone time than last time. 

My parents got a new house, and im not sure if im being selfish about it or not, but i am having a hard time adjusting to them being somewhere new. I love the house i grew up in. We were there through my teenage years and there are so many memories, i just can not imagine not being in it again. I plan on just going there when i get home and reliving every memory again. Even if someone new lives there, they will just have to understand. Thats my house dang it!!! I just want to sit in it for a while, possibly cry a little. No matter how much of my past i always say i want to forget, its still there and i remember it, and it made me who i am so i want to keep it i guess. I just love that house. :/

im done.