Oh my goodness, what an awesome weekend we had! We left friday evening time and carpooled with morgan and jordan to folsom. Awesome ride, we had so much fun and some jesus time. It was so good. It was awesome to connect with someone that grew up so similar to me, and who understood things other people just dont. We got into folsom about 9, hung out and adam got home about 11. That night we went to bed early, ya know like 12 30. lol. We had a crazy awesome day to look forward to.

So saturday morning we get up at like 7, bought some stuff to make an awesome breakfast and rushed around getting ready and headed over to the community center for Family Fun Day. What a blessing that was to be there and help our awesome friends in their ministry. The day was so awesome and there were so many people. It was def a hit! So fun. I have a few pics i will post in another blog because i havnt downloaded them yet.

Saturday night we had a blast. Partying down with some great friends. I was loving it! We got home about 1 30, 2ish i think. Got up at 7 30 got ready for church and had some Jesus time. So fun to be with the Disciples Church. It was a wonderful experience. We had an amazing lunch, then headed back to adams to pack up and get ready to go. We left folsom around 3, crazy fun car ride. Got some food and pulled back into jordans driveway at 7. We got our stuff unloaded and headed up to The Stirring :) Got there with 2 min to spare before we started. SOOOO GOOOOOOOOOOOOD to be back there. It is def home when i walk in those doors! 

My little J Bay got baptized, im so proud of her. That is an amazing experience, and we got to share it with her. 

All of that to say, CRAZY BUSY weekend, but SO wonderful!

LOVE YOU!

LOVE

Katie and I have been talking a lot lately about something. I am a little worried to be going to the church i grew up in for a few reasons, one of which...to them...i am not ''saved". Its so beyond my understanding that people are living and breathing and loving their savior, but yet, they arent "saved". People are reading their bibles studying his word, following after him in every way, but they are not "saved". 

I have finally over the last few months started understanding how to love God and to truly love him. To give him all control over me and to trust that he loves me and he will take care of me. Before, it was like a rule, i put on my skirt, made my hair the size of texas and went to church. Now its like, i wake up in the morning and i smile, because I love him, i really love him. Its not an act, its not because its what I am supposed to do, its because i have the relationship with him that was never there before. Its not about all these things that other people have made it out to be. Its me and him, he is my best friend, my love. At the end of the day, if i live right through him, if i show people i love him and try to draw them closer to him, i have done what i am here to do. That is what i am here to do. Not to scare people with crazy rules and regulations on how they are supposed to show HIS love. 

Many many things going through my mind lately. This is the place I let those thoughts out...so here it goes!

Why is it that I feel like I am the one putting forth all the effort in some of my friendships? I am not talking about any of my really close friends, but other friends that I used to think were close. It seems as if they could care less these days. Its frustrating to me because, we are supposed to love all, but how do i get to the place where i can express all that love to certain people and be okay with not getting it in return? When people do not respond back, when they ignore, when they act like you do not exist, its rude and hurtful. Maybe i am just being a girl, or being too overly sensitive, but I am human. I think we can all say we have felt this way at some time or another.

On to my next overwhelming thought. I am ready to do something. I have an overwhelming passion to help those around me, to be a friend and to show the love of God to so many. Where do I begin? This new role we have started at the stirring is exactly where I know I need to be...but waiting. UGH. The waiting is so, well, frustrating. I cant think of a better word. I want to get it going and God just keeps putting a hold on it. Waiting and waiting. oh. life. 

Next!

My friend michelle just had her baby. Beautiful little girl! Im so happy for her and her hubby. Being a parent is the best feeling ever. Little Sophia was a month early, so keep her in your prayers because she is in the NICU, doing better, but not ready to be released yet. 

One of the diamonds fell out of my ring. Seriously. rude. I was so angry. Hopefully my warrenty will cover it since I never get my rings cleaned because the jewelry store is oh...about 3000 miles away from me. In a month i will find out, its just a baby one so I am hoping they will. Sad day if they dont :(

All done.

random i know.

So its a little after 11 and I am wide awake...I have tons of things on my mind, so Im hoping if i write them all down it will make them go away for a little while...

I am UBER worried about my trip home. Not the actual being home part but the getting there part. I love flying, I always have, but with aiden it makes things so difficult. I was lucky enough to get a ticket with only one stop :) but, I have an hour to get to my next plane...Im always worried I wont make it, and being stuck in an airport with a baby. Not fun. Not to mention the actual flying part. There is nothing Aiden hates more than being stuck in someones arms for a long time...8 hours is going to be quite an experience. We flew in November, and it was rough and now he is WAY more mobile, way more grumpy and hates not being able to run around even more. I am terrified, typing it out is making my stomach go in knots right now. yikes.

Thats about all i can handle typing tonight. I need to do some research. :(

I see some of my friends still going through a fight trying to figure everything out. It breaks my heart. I cant imagine being in their shoes. I am all for having a good time, but to the extent of not knowing whats going on, forgetting everything the next morning, hurting people by saying things you dont mean....why would anyone want that on themselves?????? God is so amazing. I would rather get drunk in his spirit then drunk by any alcohol. Its so hard to see my friends still battling, trying to figure out their place in this world. You have to be either so far perfect or so far wrong to them. If they are going to be bad, they have to go all in. Its not supposed to be like that. You can have a drink and still love God, you can have a drink and still go to church, God is still going to love you. Its all about putting him first, not going overboard. Oh i just wish they could understand!!!!! 

Boo Boo

Aiden got a new haircut!! Cute huh?? Its a faux hawk. Kinda hard to tell...but its super cute. Im thinking he looks more his age, not so baby-ish. I hated it at first, but I love it. He is so cute :)

Then...he did this little number.

Its breaking my heart :( He fell on the cement, Im thinking he was trying to run and just tripped head first on the ground. He does it all the time but typically catches his head but not this time. I freaked out, called a lot of people about what to do. He seems to be fine, i checked his eyes, it swelled up and then went down. Not in because in is bad. He played, he ate, he went to bed and woke up. So we are good. I gave him tylenol because I would assume a headache would come shortly after. This picture was when we woke him up...notice the anger. lol. He wasnt very happy with us because he was so sleepy. 

Just pray for his little head that it heals well. No big scars or weirdness. 

Love you guys.

addict???

8 cups of coffee.

Its not good to make an entire pot of coffee when you are home by yourself.

Im feeling very...fast....

jittery....

I really should stop doing the coffee thing....

no i shouldnt.

lol.

but really...this is a lot.

random.

Tonight I was on the phone with Katie doing our typical 2 hour phone call of randomness and I realized I dont cry anymore. We were talking about my mom and just random things about home and my eyes got watery and I was like wow, this is probably only the second time I have shed a tear about being away from home. I miss it though. I think it would be good for me to just cry and let it all out. I just cant. Is that weird? 

Tj got a ticket. A 415 dollar ticket for turning right on red without coming to a complete stop. I wanted to get a couch. But instead we will be paying his ticket. I know God has it under control. Im oddly not really stressed out about it at all...which if you know me, thats odd because I stress out about our finances more than anything else. 

I talked to Trey Wednesday , he was in the chicago airport making his way to Japan. I gave him a quick lecture on God and told him I loved him and now I plan on hearing from him from emails for the next 2 years. :( 

Im kind of at a loss of what to say, I really want to vent about a situation I am having right now, but it doesnt need to get spread around in blog world. I will say that Tj and I need prayer over the situation with this person. Its becoming harder and harder and I dont know how much longer I can be nice about it. So please just pray for us, this person is an important person in our lives.

This was all random, but its things that have been on my mind all day. 

jonah

Church was so awesome this morning. We wrapped up the Jonah series, those messages helped me so much. Just a few months ago I was Jonah. God had a calling on our lives and I wanted nothing to do with it because it meant living in Redding away from everything I was comfortable with. Its amazing what God will do though when you do finally give it all to him. Just like Jonah my family has become so blessed since we started giving God control.

I am a crazy control freak, I have serious trust issues, so giving up everything to God was always so hard for me. Trusting him with my finances, a place to live, friends, moving, a new church, everything took some time. Now that I have given it all to him, life is blissful. We stepped out of our shell to start doing the jr. high and because of that, I have the most amazing friend that I had been searching for since we moved here. :) She has been so great to my family and it feels so nice to have a friend that I made all by myself. 

We will still have our struggles, but I know can say that I can completely trust that God will take care of us. I know that no matter what life brings he will be there to catch us. I know our calling is to be part of Jr. High, and from there we may find even more things, but this is where we need to be and it finally feels right. 

Friends I encourage you to find your calling, no matter what it may be, God has plans for each and every one of you. We need to be his disciple and make disciples. Put your complete trust in him, because when you do you will have such JOY!

We went to Chico to see Michael perform :) 

My pics suck, but here are a few!

There were so many great performances there. Some were very unique. Overall the night was very entertaining and the pizza was amazing! YUM :)

Michael you did a great job friend! It was so fun!! Amazing!